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Saturday, 25 December 2010

be fair

In bedtime stories our parents used to read to us, when the fox eats sheep, we used to tell kids that the fox is wicked and black hearted for eating poor sheep. Then we convince the kids to eat meat.”yalla ya 7abeby kol hmm 3shan tekbar”. Why we aren't wicked black hearted people, don't we eat sheep too?

So when we eat meat we are not wicked and that is good for us, but when fox eat meat they are wicked! (Taking in consideration that we have many other things to eat that fox don't have, they won't eat rice or vegetables!) I'm not discussing the matter that God created sheep for us to eat, I know that. I just wonder about how we see things from two perspectives, a general one and a special one when the matter becomes related to us, and here are some examples that most of us do in our daily life:

When we cross the street, we shout at the car owners to slow down, Man3adeesh el share3 y3ny?! We don't have to run and this is a street, ENTA MSH RAKEB TAYARA!
(I heard this particular phrase when i was in my dad car once from a group of dumb people who were trying to cross the Autostrade from a very wise point, Matla3 el kobry!)
But when we drive our cars we shout at the pedestrians to cross the streets faster, ENTA MSH MAASHY 3Al COURNICHE!!!

When anyone crashes into another car, it is impossible for him to admit that it was his mistake although he/she (and it is mostly her) may have no driving license at all! (aw tal3a b el kosa w el wasta zay ma kol el-nas tala3oha , mn 3’eer ay driving test asln).

When we want to drive through “medaan” or “takato3” with our cars, we always think that we have the priority to cross, and the rest of cars should wait for us.
And this lead to a very good rule, the one who doesn’t care more about his ride will cross first. As example: my dad drives (mitsubishi lanser , so if a BMW driver and him were trying to cross, dad will cross first! Cuz his car is cheaper to fix if it was hit. On the other hand, if he tried to cross and the other driver was driving a LADA or an old FIAT, of course he’ll cross first, or he will regret it!

Your father can smoke, but you can’t because it’s dangerous for your health!! As if lung cancer can’t affect fathers!

When you want to sell something, you try to sell it for the highest price you can get, and you try to prove to the buyer that it is better than new!
When you want to buy something, you try to get it for the lowest price you can negotiate for, and you’ll convince the seller that it is a piece of crap and you’re buying it just to help him!!

There are LOADS of other situations, da ely ana fakro now! So this proves that we aren’t fair at all!
Why don’t we just play fair? Leeh el ta3lab byb2a makaar 3shan byakol el 5erfaan w e7na lazm nakol 5erfaan 3shan nekbar?! It’s double standards.

Saturday, 11 December 2010


Dear depression:
I know we have been together for a long time
I understand that you must be there in my life from time to time; but I'm kindly asking you for a break … would it you please understand why I need a break? Because
EVERY TIME I HAVE A GOOD TIME  YOU hit me again …. You hit me again Depression. ..And why? Is two days too much for me>? I just wanna have some peace. ..To be able to smile for enjoy the blue sky and my favorite season … to enjoy the enjoy every drop of it!!
The weird thing is that I'm very optimistic person … I love hope faith and light …so why you keep hitting me like you can't find someone else? I have learned a lot about life but what still freak me out , I will admit what I didn’t learn yet … my mistakes … loving too much …forgiving too easy… trusting too quickly and expect the same from people I think I will stick with the quote " give more and … expect less "
Regardless that I believe that forgiveness is the most powerful thing anyone can do and not everyone is able to do such a thing … its very hard extremely hard.
I never figured out why I suffer this much?? Do I choose the wrong people in my life??
No I have lot of great friends and I love every single one of them then why suddenly everything is a mess!! Such a mess 
So please give me a chance to fix my life breathe …I wanna stand on my feet again
My dearest depression … please accept my request
Your favorite person.
hadeer ali


Is it already the last month of the year? I really wanna end this year   a
dditionally begin a fresh new one thou I had a new things this year i've never experienced  that u have responsibilties  that  keeps me busy like hell no time for anything just going to the school everyday getting back home for studying and eventually sleeping no time for writing , blogging but I missed writing, I missed holding the pen writing what I feel and thoughts, I normally write allness in my note first then copy them here, I do not know why but there is something about the pen that makes you fall inlove with writing in how you can draw the word according to your feeling!

oh and its getting cold here which something I love I have no clue why people hate winter and cold, it's always a chance to let out your warm feeling everything become magical people are more relaxed , friends are so closer and cozy , ice cream taste better I LOVE ICE CREAM IN WINTER! The house become so warm, the streets, tress, everything get cleaned and sparking from the rain OH THE SOUND OF RAIN! Clothes become so trendy and classy I missed all of that! 

Thursday, 9 December 2010

dear you

you should be the most important person in my life and you should be my safety arm  but you have reached a dead point with me i can't hate you what am gonna do in those all coming years i can't live like that hating you all the time i'm not feeling ashame of it coz i tried and tried and tried to come closer but you always pushed me away not directly but with your acts and attitude i know u are the exact person that i should accept with bads and goods but i don't know what to  do :"( it's killing me day after day i can't event stand ur jokes why you are a fact in my life why i'm always struggling with you why just can't we go on in our life as simple as that u make every thing complex and i know you do u you are the exact type that loves to be the center  of attention ok there is no thing wrong with that try to be the center of attention by good attitudes not to make every one is unhappy and go stay in ur room like u are the oppressed person and we all the bad ones i feel like i can write and write and don't stop saying how sad i am and how weired are you and how i can't stand my life and how i'm feeling like i'm in torture coz i know i just can't accept the fact that u are in my life but i can't do a thing about it i  just say ok and go cry in my room feeling pity on my self and saying how much life is unfair with me and i know  that i'm forced to just accept you how you are many ppl do that accept others on their bad and goods but believe me    ppl it's just not the same situation here but i'll just say el7 yarab sabrny 
i'm sure i'm not  in the mood of studying and thank god i've been promised that they will be no problems and that they will provides the good atmosphere  so i can study but i don't think they done any thing of that just like the normal life of mine i hope i'd be better soon isa     

Sunday, 5 December 2010

There's a hadith, or saying by the Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) that I only recently understood and fell in love with its beauty and the wisdom behind it.

'If the Hour were to occur and you had a seed or a small plant in your hand, (you would plant it) and if your are bale to plant it before that, then plant it (now).'
This is one of my favorite teachings by the Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) because it perfectly exemplifies the wisdom and divinity of his teachings. Here, the Prophet (pbuh) is reminding people that it does not matter the outcome of ones actions, or the reward one gets from doing something, what matters is the effort one puts into anything and the intention they had. So for example, you put the effort into planting that seed, so even if the Hour occurs, you are still rewarded for the effort you put into planting that seed.

It's not the ends but rather the means.

Even after all this time
the sun never says to the Earth 
'you owe me'. 
Look what happens
with a love like that,
it lights the whole sky. 

- Hafiz
A Persian poet of the 1300's

If I can stop one heart from breaking,
I shall not live in vain;

If I can ease one life the aching,

Or cool one pain,

Or help one fainting robin

Unto his nest again,

I shall not live in vain.

- Emily Dickinson

The Value of Time by Sheikh Hamza Yusuf

Islam is a religion based on revelation that deems the human being nothing less than the vicegerent of God
. The work of the world never ends, and one’s obligations are greater than the time allotted to fulfil them. For this reason, Muslim jurists hesitated to condone anything that wasted one’s time without benefit, other than acts that the Prophet (Sallallahu alayhi wasalam) had clearly said are useful: playing with one’s spouse, spending time with one’s children and family, and engaging in sports that displayed martial valor and character, such as horsemanship, archery, swimming, and swordplay.

Nevertheless, the Prophet (Sallallahu alayhi wasalam) enjoyed life and encouraged others to do so. During festive times, such as holidays and wedding ceremonies, he (saw) encouraged entertainment, including singing. According to Imam al-Bukhari (ra) in his al-Tareekh, the Prophet’s (saw) companions (ra) once had a food-fight with the leftover rinds of watermelon. The Prophet (saw) also witnessed a food-fight among the womenfolk of his household and laughed heartily. He (saw) listened to his companions talk about their silliness before Islam and to their stories about the foolish things they did without reason and would laugh until his molars showed. He (saw) joked but always told the truth. He (saw) was not a prude, nor was he a puritan who did not appreciate human weakness and folly. Far from fanaticism, he (saw) despised extremism and zealotry, and loved gentleness and compassion, even with his enemies.

He (Sallallahu alayhi wasalam) was a lion on the battlefield, but once the battle was over and the day won, he showed immense magnanimity that overwhelmed even his worst enemies. He (saw) took life seriously and warned us not to spend our lives in vain pursuits. He reminded us that while laughter has its place, it should not become such a central part of our lives that we fail to recognize the gravity of life and the misery in which many less fortunate people live. He (saw) smiled much of the time and hence was called “the smiling one”. He (saw) said, “To smile in the face of your brother is charity.”

The Prophet’s (Sallallahu alayhi wasalam) statements about such things as playing backgammon reflect his seriousness and concern for his community. He (saw) reminded us that, “Most of humanity cheat themselves of two precious things: good health and leisure.” Leisure in Arabic is faragh, which means “emptiness.” It is the time one is free of preoccupation. Most of us fill that time with trivial pursuits, such as watching television, listening to music, playing games, and engaging in empty chatter. Before we know it, our lives are gone. Our seconds become minutes, our minute’s hours, our hour’s days, and our day’s years, until suddenly we find that our lives are over, and what have we accomplished?

“By time, surely humanity is in loss except those who believe and do good works, and enjoin each other to the truth and to patience.”

This Surah reminds us that time is our treasure - each minute is irreplaceable, and either we invest it in the next life or squander it here in an inevitable progression toward spiritual bankruptcy. The scholars of the past, more than others, understood the precious value of time.

Islam is not a harsh religion, nor a religion that deprives people of enjoyment, but it is a religion that demands a level of seriousness, commitment, and concern with the human condition. We should use our time to better ourselves and improve conditions for others, and this does not exclude utilizing our time for recreation and renewal. We all need “downtime time” to relax and restore ourselves for the challenges of life and the preparation for the next life. Games, recreation, fun, folly, silliness, and vacations all have their place in our lives, but the tragedy occurs when those activities become the purpose of our lives, and the true purpose of life is entirely missed. Our efforts are directed towards recreation: we work to play, believing that the week is only an excuse for the weekend.

The world is filled with people who are “killing time,” completely unaware that time is actually killing us. One day, we will wake up and have to face our lives in their entirety. According to Imam al-Awzai (d. 157/774), everyone will watch their lives from start to finish on the Day of Judgment. No one will be allowed to interrupt to edit or to explain. What we watch will simply be a rerun of our entire lives, yet this time around, we will be painfully aware of the meaning that eluded us the first time because we were not paying attention.

If playing chess once concerned the scholars of Islam, what would they say to us today about our habits of watching television, channel hopping and films and cinema and playing videogames, about our endless conversations on mobile phones and on-line chatting, or about the hours that we spend surfing the net and reading empty blogs written by people with little to say and less to do? Our scholars’ concern was our salvation and well-being, and while Muslims today may see them as zealous or fanatics, on the Day the Debts fall due and we are taken to account for every moment of our lives, those scholars will be seen for the giants they were, and their counsel to us will be a bitter taste of remorse in our mouths.

We were both young when I first saw you.
I close my eyes, and the flashback starts,
I'm standing there,
On the balcony in summer air.

I see the lights, see the party, the ballgowns.
See you make your way through the crowd,
And say, "Hello",
Little did I know,

That you were Romeo,
You were throwing pebbles,
And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet."
And I was crying on the staircase,
Begging you, "Please don't go".

And I said,
"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting, all that's left to do is run.
You be the prince, and I'll be the princess,
It's a love story, baby, just say, 'yes'."

So I sneak out to the garden to see you,
We keep quiet, 'cause we're dead if he knew,
So close your eyes,
Escape this town for a little while.

'Cause you were Romeo,
I was a scarlet letter,
And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet."
But you were everything to me,
Begging you, "Please don't go".

And I said,
"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting, all that's left to do is run.
You be the prince, and I'll be the princess,
It's a love story, baby, just say, 'yes'."

"Romeo, save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel.
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid, we'll make it of this mess,
It's a love story, baby, just say, 'yes'."

Well, I got tired of waiting,
Wondering if you were ever coming around.
My faith in you was fading,
When I met you on the outskirts of town.

And I said,
"Romeo, save me, I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting for you, but you never come.
Is this in my head,
I don't know what to think,"

You knelt to the ground,
And pulled out a ring and said,
"Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone.
I love you, and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress,
It's a love story, baby just say yes."

We were both young when I first saw you...

Saturday, 27 November 2010

oh yeah

oh yeah...i'm so hungry but i don't wanna eat and so tired but i'm stuck on the books ..:"(

dear tuesday

i don't want you to come  :(:(

at this time i'm really depressed studying is getting over me and i'm having bad time i'm so stressed i need time out i need to rest sleep and get ride of all the scary thoughts i have  wish me luck if i passed this tuesday alive !!!! then i'll be ok 

Friday, 19 November 2010

grey's anatomy ♥♥

 Okay, here it is, your choice... it's simple, her or me, and I'm sure she is really great. But Derek, I love you, in a really, really big pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me, choose me, love me."
Meredith Grey

Wednesday, 10 November 2010

p.s i love u my best movie ever

Why do I have to be
the responsible grownup who worries?
Why can't I be the cute, carefree
Irish guy who sings all the time!"
- Holly, P.S. I love you

Your intellect may be confused, 
but your emotions will never lie to you.
 Roger Ebert 

“Love is like your best friend 
that you don’t see a lot. 
You know they’re always there 
but they’re just hard to get hold of. 
And when you do finally find them, 
it’s just great 
and you want to hug them 
and never let them go.” 

Just a poetic bullshit?

You once told me, 
our fingerprints don’t fade 
from the lives we touch.
Is that true for everybody,
or is it just poetic bullshit?
Remember Me

Three truths about change.
1. it is imminent.
2. it is scary.
3. it is beautiful.
Your life is a sacred journey. And it is about change, growth, discovery, movement, transformation, continuously expanding your vision of what is possible, stretching your soul, learning to see clearly and deeply, listening to your intuition, taking courageous challenges at every step along the way. You are on the path… exactly where you are meant to be right now… And from here, you can only go forward, shaping your life story into a magnificent tale of triumph, of healing, of courage, of beauty, of wisdom, of power, of dignity, and of love.

embrace change, for it is in your best interest.
with Love, 

"He’s the gravity,
that keeps my feet on the ground. 
I’m the wings,
that keep his heart in the sky."

taylor ♥

"You are 
the best thing 
that's ever been
-Taylor Swift


i'm feeling happy and looking forward this week yaaaaaaaaaaaay for vacation after so much hard ,long and boring months of studying feeling like this week is gonna make a difference specially after the stress i had last week it was like hell :) happy eid every one  (3iid mubaraak insha allaah) i hope every one will enjoy it although i'm not gonna be with my friends 4 this week i'mm gonna have a little trip with ma family  :(:( but i still have high expectations 4 this week wish me luck every one 

                                  :This week, I wanna thank for :

. A little peace of mind at the end, with a little clue and plans ahead

. Pizza, . my fave 
My lovely  friends

Some little but sweet talks
 Cold weather,love it always

What are you thankful for

Have a happy weekend, Have fun!


When I look at you
I’m home.”

Friday, 5 November 2010

A Box full of kisses(not written by me)

The story goes that some time ago, a man punished his 3-year-old daughter for wasting a roll of gold wrapping paper. Money was tight and he became infuriated when the child tried to decorate a box to put under the Christmas tree. Nevertheless, the little girl brought the gift to her father the next morning and said, "This is for you, Daddy."

The man was embarrassed by his earlier overreaction, but his anger flared again when he found out the box was empty. He yelled at her, stating, "Don't you know, when you give someone a present, there is supposed to be something inside? The little girl looked up at him with tears in her eyes and cried, "Oh, Daddy, it's not empty at all. I blew kisses into the box. They're all for you, Daddy."

The father was crushed. He put his arms around his little girl, and he begged for her forgiveness.

Only a short time later, an accident took the life of the child. It is also told that her father kept that gold box by his bed for many years and, whenever he was discouraged, he would take out an imaginary kiss and remember the love of the child who had put it there.

In a very real sense, each one of us, as humans beings, have been given a gold container filled with unconditional love and kisses... from our children, family members, friends, and God. There is simply no other possession, anyone could hold, more precious than this.

Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the
 others, including Love. One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all constructed boats and left. Except for Love.

Love was the only one who stayed. Love wanted to hold out until the last possible moment.

When the island had almost sunk, Love decided to ask for help.

Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said,
"Richness, can you take me with you?"
Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you."

Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel. "Vanity, please help me!"
"I can't help you, Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered.

Sadness was close by so Love asked, "Sadness, let me go with you."
"Oh . . . Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!"

Happiness passed by Love, too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her.

Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come, Love, I will take you." It was an elder. So blessed and overjoyed, Love even forgot to ask the elder where they were going. When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way. Realizing how much was owed the elder,

Love asked Knowledge, another elder, "Who Helped me?"
"It was Time," Knowledge answered.
"Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?"
Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how valuable Love is."

Saturday, 30 October 2010

When I was young and before I actually get my life my aunts and mum's friends always said that "men love stupid women… so try to be one to please him" and like every thing we hear  i took it in my  so UN experience mind and with a thrill.
And as I grow I saw lot of girls just losing their own personality, their goal, their hobbies even their career and eventually their life and becoming just the shadow of him, the pale person, and the unspeakable mind.
Sadly is it? To lose half of our society just to please the other half!! If we really are sure that something please them after all!!
Do we really have to lose ourselves?
While I was watching the devil wears Prada and step ford wives for the million times I asked my self the same question
Do we always have to choose between your success in your career and your personal life? Do we always have to step forward no matter what? And what ever it takes? I have lot of ambition for my future and career isa  I actually wanna make a different in the world;) xD  I really wanna be something for several reasons
It's not that to prove that we can do it!!! We have proved that from million years ago and we are already doing it!! But still we face lot ofdifficulty in that issue!!
What men say to women when they wanna work!!
"your number one career in the world is to rise the children and take care of your home plus why do you want to" tbhdly nfsk" when you can stay at home like a princess"
It's too familiar to us to explain
Yeah its true if your work just give you hell then look for a better place but who said you will always gat what you want that easy !!?
We have to work hard sometimes to get to the right place.
"Our religion state that women should stay home and men get the money for living it's not right for you to work"
Completely wrong… our religion valuable the women in very single way we have to be comfort in our life because we have a very important role so as long as we are comfort and working with decent people then why not?
"El saeda Khatiga" had her own business and she had her own source of money.
Actually she married "el Rasol" (salah Allah 3leha w salm) from her business trading and it was okay for her to work!
"You will be busy all the time … I just want you to be mine"
So selfish!! You will be out of home most of the day
And we will stay home lonely waiting for you in a bad mood
And of course you will be stressed from working so I will hope that you will understand what I'm going through and you will do the same and none of us will ever be pleased!! WHAT A LIFE!!

I'm so lost and broken I wish I could lead my self again 

I think everybody deserve to find a place just for him self

A place where he can think and be isolated from the world

A place where I can watch the sunset and hear some soft music

Some where beyond the sea or above the sky among the stars

Or even a tree house, somewhere away away from everything away
 from the people away from the traffic away from the troubles
My perfect place would be something beside the sea

Where I can smell the salt of the sea and inhale it deeply until it 
reaches every inch in my body
And wake up on the sound of the waves … draw on the sand

I'm seriously thinking of traveling for a whole or even a day I just 
want to rethink about lots of thing and find my true self
Oh god if only I can find this place…!!

Don't you thinking we deserve this place?


we made them …we miss them … and sometimes we hate them but once it become a memory we aren't allowed to erase them we try our best by getting busy . Having new hobbies or knowing new people but they find their way back to our life and then hit you when you less expected it because Its there in your mind what ever you do when ever you go it’s the biggest part of your daily thinking … we may forget the details but we will never forget how it used to feel …how he used to make you laugh how she used to comfort you … how good having this person in your life … the feeling is always there waiting to go out by any kind of way …

Wednesday, 27 October 2010

It was's always midnight when he decided he can't take it anymore; he put on his coat and left home for a walk he didn’t know where to go but he opened the door and just walked away hoping he could leave his concern and fear behind.
The wind hit his face sturdy like continually waves it was wintry there, he tried to cover every inch of this body under this coat , the night was cruel just like how he feels lost , cold and undefined
he struggles to keep walking his way out even the trees were struggling with the wind to stand still, the moon was full leaving his light floating around smoothly like a song of sorrow for him … a tear run of his face couldn’t figure out is it because of the cold or because of the pain ?…the pain " Stop thinking like that " his mind told him " no I just can't take it anymore I was stupid I don’t even know how I did that she will never forgive me ..never " he found himself so near to her home fighting a monster inside his heart to stop right there and not going under her home shouting his throat out that he still in love with her and he is sorry " really sorry …maybe she will forgive me " " no not this time I hurt her so much I can't even forgive my self !!" then he thought maybe if he was lucky he will pass by her home and just see her shadow across the window " I miss her … I miss her smell … I miss her smile .. I can't think about her anymore she is gone and I better stay out of her life I have done enough" the memory of seeing her smiling again took over and he couldn’t resist but to smile " she was the love of my life and I pretended she was not .. How fool I'm!!? he closed his eyes hard putting all his pressure, a fail task to erase her from his mind then he sighted a long meaningful painful sigh its not working and never will I'm clueless how to unbreak heart again ! I just wanna fade away life is so hollow without her smelling like fresh flowers at the morning, laughing around like babies she was his shine , his warmness , his comfort and he let her go … a sold sharp feeling crossed him! He gasp for air although it was windy but he felt like there is no more air left for him to breath or essentially he doesn't want anymore oxygen inflowing his lungs ever again as long as she is not here besides him feeling his hand leaving him with that tenderness wonder of her and his sweet surrender! He lost her, He lost his lily pad!

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